I believe if Heaven exsists the clouds are blue cotton candy

They say you should never discuss politics or religion. I think people who aren’t open minded enough and to pigheaded to discuss the huge spectrum of option tied to each shouldn’t talk. To be honest in my conversations with others I don’t discuss my views on either topic. In part because so many people are pigheaded and become very defensive of their views when new ones are introduced, and in larger part because I fear speaking out for my views. I hope to work on that. I do express myself but mostly through silent mediums; art, writing, music. Things that mean what they mean to me but can be inturpreted at will. Long winded intro short this  blog is going to graze my background view on religion, and I will come back to it tonight after having chilled with some friends.

I was born, raised, and confirmed catholic, by the non hardcore catholics. My parents raised me in the idea that being a good person was right, and that religion shouldn’t close you off from others but encourage you to reach out to all people. Despite how that makes them sound they aren’t drugged out hippies. They are just very loving respectful people. I follow after them and have never allowed my personal religious affliation to restrict me from anyone. That being said I do not wholehearted believe in any one religion. I take bits and pieces. I think they all hold some truth. Many a shared truth, and if nothing else a beautiful message of being the best person you can and showing compassion. They encourage personal growth I dig that.

I have friends all over the board on religion; hardcore this or that, athiest, so so, sorta make your own etc. But we never really discuss it. It’s probably safer that way. I tend to question everything, and that frenquently includes the biggest mystery of mankind, it’s maker.

I have determined that I do not believe in creationsim.

I do believe in angels, both on earth and spirtually.

I do not believe in ghosts(due to my definition of one)

I do not believe in demons.

I do believe that heaven and hell reside on earth and internally, and we can choose whichever we desire.

I am uncertain of my believes regaurding heaven and hell after death.

I do believe something out there ties to us.

I do believe that God is largely in our minds, but I do not believe it is only in our minds – it’s to simple

I do not believe in fate or that if there is something more– a God that he doesn’t intervine with us.

I do believe this world we’re in is an illusion and fundamentally empty – thank you philosophy and zen lectures.

I do believe that this fundamentally empty dreamlike illusion we occupy has a very important purpose – although I am not sure what.

I do believe we have souls.

I do not believe any soul is saved or damned.

I do believe that many religious experiences are only manifestations of the intense fear people hold of their own demise.

I do also believe some religious experiences are sincere, and are rarely spoken of.

I do believe in communication with those not in this world.

and above all I do frequently change my mind on many of these things while I continue to unweave the thought process that brings me to new ideas.

I will close this blog with a poem after addressing my own commenter coldfire – do you blog? I would be very interested in hearing/reading what you think and above all discussing many of these issues. Any way to contact you via internet source? IM, blog, other etc.  let me know. I really enjoy your comments.

Where’d the time go?It ran away with the idealistic innocence of faith

Where’d his heart go?

Out the window, down the street to infidelity road just past the point of no return

Why’d he die?

A question no one can answer but the mind wonders and twists.

Why do we fly when we’re doomed to break

Crash and burn, the odds of life

And still we stand waiting for our shot to defy the odds and soar

But nothing comes priceless

You break among millions or you fly alone

Hearts heal, scared and scarred

Afraid to live, afraid to die

Absolutely no where to go

Run or stay the minds demons keep promises to never go away.

That was written this last year about a lot of various heartaches that were happening in my life. I like it, but beacause it’s my own I am partial, and highly critical, it’s like an internal odd couple.

Until tonight

-chrish